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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:18

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Was to survive, this bastard.

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My life is so biszare .

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My family never makes their pension either.

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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But it wasn’t much.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

What can melt your heart?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

It was going to be , some day.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Put me off passion for life!!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

When she asked me how she looked .

Why did i forgive my father ?

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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I was scared of men, in general

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

This is soul school!.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was seconnd youngest,

She married twice! .

He knew the spot.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Comes on , in middle age.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

What did i know ?

Where the ultimate outsiders.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I waited trembling.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Would this be the day?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

(And it was in our own minds.)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And i lived it daily.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I couldn’t, believe it.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I was very sick at this time too.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

So, i spoilt her more .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Ive learnt so much.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

We all went to grammer schools

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She was in good health!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

So whats the point in blame.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He resisted the act ,that day.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I was 9 years of age.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But ive been too sick for many years..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She wouldn,t have been !

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

All the time i was locked up.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I don,t even have a pension.

I will be 64.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I said to her

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

We were not on the streets..

I never cut or harmed myself..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I think the readers, may guess!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Im still living with it.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But, we were locked up after school.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She loved him until the end.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I write beautiful poetry .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I have no regrets .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She found it foreign!.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

One cannot live in the past .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Who then, do I blame.?